My first step of moving towards a Brawny Life came when I was 16 years old. Some things had happened that had completely stripped away the life I knew. When I say things I am talking about being delivered to my front door by a police officer at 3 am in the morning to my mother who had know idea I was out of bed. Also having a close friend think I had taken our relationship beyond what she wanted..again I said think/believe I had you will need to continue reading through my journey to understand this as it took be more than 8 years to figure out myself. Whats important about this spot was that it left me lost and lonely. My Mother could tell and ask often whats wrong Brawn? Of course I answered like every male teenager would – nothing mom, nothing – leave me alone. Thankfully she stayed persistent and caught me vulnerable one night. That night I opend up and said I was wandering if anybody loved me. Of course she said there will always be someone that loves you. I said your my mom your suppose to. She interrupted me and said no not me – I DON’T KNOW IF I WILL BE HERE TOMORROW OR NOT BUT GOD WILL – HE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. This completely took me by surprise and I began to ask a lot of questions – who is this God who loves me? How can I know this? Where can I find him? So the the next Sunday I walked to church for the first time in my life to find out.
